Weighing heavy on my chest

Hey everyone, I really just need to get my thoughts off my chest. I don't want to talk to my husband about it because if I am pregnant, I want it to be a total surprise. I am due for AF on 1/10, so I know I just need to wait to see if she comes, but it's so difficult. My husband came in me Dec. 20 and I ovulated the 23 or24. Since then, I have had symptoms outside of my normal pms. I have had frequent urination, mild cramping for the last week, extremely sore breasts, nausea at times, insomnia, and fatigue. I took a test this morning and it was negative. I know it's early and dumb to test before I know if I will miss AF or not. I keep thinking about and having dreams about being pregnant. Really, I just wish the wait was over!!