My new vag

I'm 23, and I've have two kids 3 years apart. My first one I had a minor tear and it looked normal, but I still got pelvic floor therapy. Second one I read that it was only a second degree tear.

When I was 6 weeks postpartum with my 2nd, I decided to look down there and was horrified. It's like not even a circle, and it's stingy. Legit has pieces of my flesh HANGING. Like it looks like I wasn't sewed up correctly.

I made a doctors appointment, and all they said was "it'll go back to normal once you heal." I'm 4 months pp and it STILL looks the same.

I don't know what to do. I cry about this daily. I'm still young, and it looks like a chainsaw has been taken to my body parts