My vaginal opening is so wide after having 3 children all natural. Not the insides just the outside part. I had to have some stitches post birth and I’m traumatized. It’s been 5 months PP and I don’t have sex at all but when I look down there I’m just so embarrassed. It looks SO OPEN. Is this normal? I’m currently separating from my husband and I’m just thinking about any future partners. I’m super embarrassed. HELP