Ugh MIL

LONG POST AHEAD SORRY

So my Mil came to visit our 7 month old son for a few days. My husband wanted to take everyone to a hockey game. I was already on edge because I hadn't exposed our son to that many people before, our seats was very high up, plus our son loves to roll on the floor and doesn't like to be held for long periods of time. I knew he would get upset because hockey games are longgg and cold. But because I love my husband I thought it would all work out so he could spend time with his son and mom. Since it was our son's first hockey game we could get him a certificate stating it was his first game. As I was walking to the section that handed out the certificate my Mil took it upon herself to find another window and get my son's certificate without asking me. I nicely said, I wanted to take Jr up to the window to get his certificate and tell his story (Jr is a 28 week old preemie survivor). I shrug it off, still upset but you know it isn't worth getting fuming mad over. Next during the game she wanted to hold him. My husband grabs Jr and I hear him gasp and say "oh crap" my momma senses says he's going to drop our son, I'm shaking scared watching every movement. He then hands our son over to Mil. She turns him around and almost drops him and says oops. I lose my cool, I start hyperventilating, crying, reaching my arms out wanting my son back. I finally get him in my arms and hold onto him for dear life. She says, I didn't think you felt that strongly about your son....

During the game Jr got hungry, his milk was ice cold, we couldn't find anywhere to warm his milk. This resulted in Jr not eating much. Out of the whole day he ate 2 bottles, and I was frustrated because we starved our son for a hockey game to please his mom. On the ride home baby was screaming for warm food, I was crying because I couldn't comfort him. So mil kept putting her hands on my son's face, shushing every 2 seconds, trying to take him out of my arms. I wanted to scream, so I ended up biting my fist to avoid further conflict. My husband kept telling his mom to stop but she wouldn't. We finally made it to a store who allowed us to get some warm water for his milk. Jr sucked the warm milk so fast it hurt me even more to watch him eat that fast. He was starving for warm milk. I felt like a failure and I felt like I wanted to punch her in the face.

There's the rant, there's more but I feel this is what really shook my mommy spirit the most