Narcissistic?

My bf makes me feel like I’m a horrible girlfriend and feel like he’s trying to tell me he will leave. I won’t sugar coat anything in this post.

So my bf and I have been arguing for the past month. It’s getting very exhausting. He’s going through heavy stress. His business isn’t doing well. I think this is affecting him a lot and every single fight he brings up “you’re never there for me. Your communication sucks”

He is making me feel horrible when I know I have been there when I can. When he argues he just screams so much over the phone and doesn’t let me speak. He randomly hangs up the phone on me or will block me for 10 minutes so my texts don’t go through. Please tell me how I am supposed to talk when he does this? He never apologized but rather tells me I just love to argue ….

So yesterday he was arguing so much and I was supposed to drive to him today. He’s about 1 hour from me. While arguing, I told him I’d take off at 9am after church but he kept talking over me and screaming. He was mad saying “things had to be done my way.” I don’t know what he was referring to. i was simply going to church ….

so on my way there i come across heavy rain. i couldnt see and was panicking so much. i called him and he was still sleeping. i told him i was halfway there but i couldnt drive anymore. the road was dangerous. he was mad that i didnt communicate the time but i did. i told him he was screaming and didnt let me talk ….he said if I told him the time he could have gotten ready and met me halfway

so he said not to worry because it started to rain really bad. He seemed calm but just now he texted me saying i never support him. So random. he said he has driven to me in the worst conditions. i really couldnt drive…. he then says his freinds tell him to stay positive and that he has made it really far already in his business. he said i never tell him anything….all I do is argue. I told him I’m not sure why he’s telling me I’m never for him. He’s the one always screaming trying to argue over everything. When he screams I do hang up him and decline his calls. It triggers me so much I start shaking. I tell him I won’t answer if he can’t talk to me properly.

When he told me about his business, he told me he wants to quit…i have told him it takes time and sometimes businesses are slow. Even then he purchased an atv. He asked me if he should buy and I said I would not until he’s really ready financially. I only offered that advice because he asked. Well guess what? He purchased it and is now struggling with payments. I told him again that I’ve been there for him and trying to give him advice but he doesn’t listen so I’m not sure what he wants to hear he blocked me again bc i said "you need to stop playing victim"

i lost my in october and he was never there to comfort me and i never used him as a punching bag. I just feel like he wants me to baby him. Not sure.