breakups suck lol

i have nowhere to really vent about this so im putting it all here (feel free to scroll past).

a week ago, the person i had been seeing for a month broke up with me. in late summer they’re going away to college a couple of hours away and they said they didnt see us lasting. all in all it was very mature and we agreed that we wanted to stay friends.

truthfully? i’ve never felt this sad from such a short term relationship, and before this i was in a one year relationship, and a two year relationship before that. but this was the first ever relationship i’ve been in thats been healthy. no co-dependency, no gaslighting, no abuse, just two teens who liked each other and embraced their silliness. for that im forever grateful.

i’ve been listening to euclid by sleep token, and it keeps making me wish for different outcomes.

i wish we worked out.

i wish we got to say ‘i love you’s a couple of more months in.

i wish they would’ve been my first ever slow dance.

i know its no good just wishing and that it’s probably getting me down, but just the thought is comforting?? i dont know.

maybe in another life.