I wish my husband would fall apart with 😭

Going through my third miscarriage and each time my husband seems unaffected. I know he’s upset but he’s also someone who doesn’t think they were real babies and that we can try again. I know it’s awful but I just want him to cry and hold me and let me know we are in this together but this is the loneliest I have ever felt. He’s the one other person on this whole planet who should be sharing my grief and yet he just floats on.

It’s not that he’s being a”man” or acting tough. I have seen him breakdown and cry in the past when his dad was very sick, and other times as well. He just has a different mindset towards miscarriage. He told me once it’s not like it was a real baby and that broke me, and now I feel like I can’t talk to him at all. I did tell him that his words upset me and he hasn’t said anything like that since. I have told him how I feel. He mostly worries about me and waves me to okay but he doesn’t go about it the right way. For example he told me if we lose this one I just don’t want you to get so upset. And I know he means he doesn’t want me to be hurt but but it makes me feel like I have to hide my tears and power through when really I don’t want to get out of bed.