Period was due 3 days ago...

My period was due 3 days ago. Oh my goodness, I'm 3 days late. And with each passing day, I can feel my hopes rising. Yes, sure I want to test. So bad. But tomorrow is payday and I have to wait until that money rolls in. The wait is killing me. I want to test but at the same time, I'm scared. I'm scared that once again it will be a BIG FAT NEGATIVE. I'm scared that it's gonna be just like every other month for that past year. Negative after negative. Periods coming and going. Cycle after cycle. Each one different than the last. Some were 82 day cycles and others were 29 day cycles. How can my body be so off? My periods finally started getting back to normal. Until now. And I'm terrified that it's just going to be another long cycle. That it's just wishful thinking. Oh how I wish I could snap my fingers and a pregnancy test would appear lol

Good luck and baby dust to each and every one of you beautiful ladies!