I'll start by saying that I'm very likely undiagnosed autistic.

I can be a very bad conversationalist, especially when I'm a bit uncomfortable. And I am not a great friend because I forget to be interested in my friends' lives. I try to be, but my brain doesn't always brain that way.

I have a friend, who was our mailperson, and she's also a neighbor of my dad and stepmom. She's pretty close to my stepmom because they ride horses together.

Now I'm house sitting and my friend/neighbor she's been involving me in things and I like it and I felt like.. you know she's trying to be my friend, I should try to be her friend, that would be nice. If she hadn't been friends with my stepmom I think she might have been already, we had good talks when she was our mail person etc. (my stepmom said and did pretty bad things to me /about me and we're civil now but I'm not trusting her for a second, I feel she's acting or playing a game or something)

So today I had an issue with a window, for which I had called my dad (It's not my fault and had happened before with my dad). My dad called someone to fix it and I'm waiting for their call, issue will soon be fixed, right. A knock on the door.. I'm like.. weird, they were going to call first and why didn't they rang the bell down at the gate.. but I open the door.

It's the friend, she's checking up on me because my stepmom asked for it.

And now I'm questioning if any of what she's invited me to was genuine or she's been tasked to keep an eye on me and my period is about to start and I want to cry.

@Nadia

We did an activity right before. So I came home, had the issue with the window, called my dad. My dad knew the issue because he'd already had thesame issue and he called a technician. like 10 minutes later the friend showed up saying my stepmom asked her to check up because of the window.

Also I'm a grown adult.. I'm 31 and I have my own home, really, I got this 😅