So I got my first positive July 10th after being over a week late.. I took the first response with the digital one as well. And I don’t know how to feel. There’s no emotions, it feels unreal .. like I feel like crying when I look at the test but nothing comes out. And would it be happy tears, sad tears..??, I have no emotions. I don’t know what to feel. I am 22 years old and will be finishing up my last year of college, but to tell you the truth since last semester I realized how much I really don’t like school. The deadlines, having to wake up early, the homework it’s exhausting! Although I still do great in school, it seems forced because I’m just trying to make my parents happy.

Anyways, I love kids.. I’ve been babysitting all my little cousins since I was a kid myself. I know it’s different having your own though. My partner is in the same boat of being shocked, which I don’t know why because he knows what he was doing. I get it takes two but not really… I feel he’s more on the urge of what are we going to do financially which is valid.

Is it normal to not feel anything? It feels like it’s not real. I find myself randomly pulling out the test and staring at it like ????????? I have never been pregnant before, and I also always said I would never get an abortion. ( not my cup of tea) unless it was extreme cases. Any advice?