Initially, when we began having sex finally, I told him that I did not want another child because I could not see myself having another child with everything I went through with my daughter.

Well, i'm very pregnant and now i have a change of heart...i kinda want to keep the baby. I had an abortion as a teen and it was not a pleasant experience.

He is pissed... He said I told him that I did not want anymore and I'd go straight to the clinic ( and i did say) if something happenend. However, now I want to either do adoption or keep my baby. He says he doesnt thing i can give the baby up.

He continues to bring up we are not financially stable and he already has 2 kids and I have one. Financially, he is absolutely correct. Im not broke, but taking on a newborn would be a lot. I am established (own a home, can, etc, but have CC debt), but im making ends meet.

Now I feel like screw him... I will do it alone, but I'm being unrealistic. I asked him if he would be mad if i kept it. He said no, but he would definitely feel like i was trying to ruin everything.

He doesnt want a relationship because he wants to take things slow and i personally think that he has been selfish about wanting to NOT be in a relationship but wanting me to exclusively see him. Like if you dont want to be with me, fine. We protected ourselves, followed my calender, condom broke, so here we are. I'm 36 years old and what if i dont get the opportunity to have another kid. I'm an automatic high risk, geriatic pregnacy. Had to get a cerclage, (and will with this one) im anemic, and ill likely have blood pressure issues.

Did I lie??