I just need to vent. I love my child with every once of my being but I so need a break.

No one talks about or understands my situation. My oldest is a high needs high energy and impulsive. He has been kicked out of every camp this summer for his impulsive behavior. I have baby sitters tell me he's horrible. Family is too old to handle him. It leaves me with no help ever. I'm so burned out. I know there is something different about my child but our pediatrician says he is just strong willed. His kindergarten round up he refused to do certain portions they told me he is strong willed.

I'm so burned out. I have other children and they don't get my focus as much because my oldest takes all my energy. My husband and myself can't even have a date because we have no help with him. My husband will then have a social life without me. I'm isolated it feels like with my beautiful oldest boy who is feral. I need a break. I so desperately need a break. He is supposed to start school I have no trust he won't be kicked off the bus. I am lost. I've read parting books. I am told I'm doing things right then why is my child not behaving? They are not allowed dyes in food, no cereal, no juice, only homemade meals, no TV. I'm told he's incredibly intelligent and above his peers intellectually. I don't know what to do anymore to make things better. I need a break.