Never happened before

Klo

I have a big question;it never ever happened to me before.So i met this man and vibes were kinda off.I mean by that he wanted more than me(sorber.)But,then we took MDMA(molly)some,(never took that b4)and then I was ultra open for sex, was back in my mind hyper surprise of it.Then we made it.But,thinking about it after the fact,sorber I didn’t want to(not that fast)I wasn’t even really attracted to him.I feel used,and dirty.I am in the right path?I personally think my responsibility was to listen to my intuition and not taking a drug I didn’t tried before.I think it’s all my fault but I feel not really good.So of it happened to someone,a similar experience or if because you’re not personally involved you wanna comment I’d really like to know.Thanks ladies!