I found out i was pregnant very early as i tested early after knowing i messed up! I seen a faint faint line at 3weeks1day and knew i was pregnant even though it was barely visable! I know abortion is really the only path i can take but i know it is going to mentally destroy me so i have gone back and forth and now i am this far. I went to the abortion clinic yesterday to pick up the pills but i dont know how i am even going to take it! For context of why i need to do this although i dont want to i have 3 boys already. My 1st i had at 16 and was so scared but went threw with the pregnancy and he is now 14 and my best friend. I had my second at 21 and my 3rd at 29. My 3rd though has spinabifida and i was offered a termination and i again just couldnt go threw with it so i kept him (best decision ever he is amazing) basically he has loads of extra needs as well as being catheterised every 3 hours witch only me and my partner are able to do. If i keep this baby i wpuld have to go threw labour and the hospital stay alone as my partner would have to stay at home with our nearly 2 year old. I dont know what im expecting from this post as no one can give me an answer but how do i take these tablets knowing im killing an innocent baby!! Im so upset all day everyday :(