I had several positive PTs on 09/26. I’ve tested with strips every day since. In fear of the HCG line getting lighter. I have preexisting anxiety and I cannot for the life of me stop being worried about miscarrying. I also have PCOS which adds gasoline to the fire for me. My breasts have been fluctuating between really, really sore and barely noticeably sore. Which frightens me. As for my HCG strips. I track them and they appear to be very similar each day but maybe faintly lighter. And then it’ll be faintly darker the next day. It’s all messing with my head. Based off of the first day of my last period, I’d be 9 weeks today. However, I am fairly certain I know almost the exact date of conception which would make me more in the 5 - 6 week range. Which makes me feel worse because that puts me farther back in the miscarriage likeliness. I have a compulsively made ultrasound appointment today. And an originally made appointment on Wednesday. I am terrified of a blighted ovum. I’m terrified of everything. I so badly need this baby. But I can’t help but think of the negatives. I wish I could be peaceful and enjoy my changing body. Did anyone have a similar experience? I want to protect this baby and help it grow but my brain sabotages my happiness. It’s awful.