I’m writing this so that I have record of it for future me!

Tonight my husband finally came inside me with no condom. We’re finally ready to start our TTC journey after being together for nearly ten years and married for 5. Yay for finally consummating our marriage properly! 🤣😅 It was a big deal for us because we were virgins when we got married so we literally had no idea what it was going to feel like.

It was worth it. I thought I would be scared because of how many times we have discussed “if” we were ready to be parents. I’ve flip flopped a gazillion times over whether or not we should bring a child into this world. We’ve debated whether it was even possible physically.

Now, after the fact, I’m strangely calm about it. I’m happy. If a child comes out of this first experience, I will consider it a blessing. A miracle.

My husband is anxious. But I knew he would be. It would be odd if he wasn’t! But I asked him if he regrets it and he said no. He’s wanted a chance to be a dad for as long as I can remember. He said he knew that we had a narrow window of time left because of our ages and my health concerns so it was only a matter of time before he came in me. I just hope I can reassure him and soothe those fears that he will fail at being a father. I think he’ll be okay because he’s snoring beside me!

Anyway, thanks for sharing in our excitement and the beginning of our journey! I have no idea if we’ll get pregnant this time around but it was 10pm on October 9th when it happened and my fertile window is supposed to be October 12-18, but I know that sperm can live inside of me for up to 5 days so ….maybe? It all depends on when my body decides to ovulate during that window I guess. I’ll let you know! 🤞