Am I overthinking?

With my daughter (last pregnancy) I was brought in a few times to make sure she was growing properly etc. now, I’m in a new state with a new doctor. On 9/30, we saw the baby 150 heartbeat . 7 weeks 3 days. Everything was looking how it should. Now, I’m not on a “high risk” track like I was off the bat. They have me doing an early glucose test & a 24 hour urine test & I’ll be seen again on 10/21.

With seeing/hearing the heartbeat with my daughter is it strange that I’m anxious to not hear it again until 11/5 (that’s when I see the doctor again so I’ll assume they’ll do it at that appointment)

On Monday, I’ll have the NIPT done & part of me just doesn’t want to know the gender until I know he/she is okay. Is this strange? Anyone have any idea how to ease my anxiety. All I’ve wished for is a normal pregnancy where I don’t have to see high risk but I wasn’t prepared to feel this way.

If you read this long thank you 😊