So I’m 6 weeks postpartum giving birth was horrible pain. My boyfriend of 8 years knows how much pain I was in and I’m barely getting back to my old self kinda. I haven’t made an OB appointment and haven’t got cleared from dr. But I’m still healing and I still have discomfort and pain. He’s been trying to have sex w me and we did it was ok at first but when we have sex he’s always rough he didn’t go lightly and so I been in pain for 2 days. And he’s trying to have sex w me even though I told him I’m in pain since the last time and I don’t feel like it’s completely healed. Yesterday he tried to have sex I said no but I was hugging him and then he started touching me I still said no sex and he kept trying and trying and trying. I kept blocking both holes bc he kept trying to enter whichever one. And I said stop & he did stop but he pinched me really bad down there and then pushed my face and said don’t hug me leave me the fuck alone. Go sleep on the couch. I felt so bad and sad I turned around and cried and went to bed. He’s talking to me as if nothing happened should I talk to him about it? I still feel very sad as if he’ll cheat on me bc I’m not having sex with him.

Edit// i didn’t think of it as SA bc he’s my boyfriend of 8 years maybe I’m in denial. See but he’ll say “ your keep shaking your ass at me” but like I want to be spooned not his dick in me. but what do you call no mean no during sex he’s choked me before during sex a little too hard and I just felt like I was forced to have sex with him. I don’t want to think of it as sexual abuse I feel bad idk what to do.. we have 2 kids together.

Edit/ i talked to him about it and how I felt and he said he was sorry he didn’t know why he got like that he said he was high from the weed and tired and it won’t happen again and he feels really bad. But idk 🤔