I just need to vent

I am 24 years old I was always on the heavier side I had an ED since the age of 15 by the time I was 20 I started enjoying food more and I haven’t really been caring so much about counting every single calorie or looking at the scale through the years I gained weight I currently weight 280 my heaviest on top of that I have PCOS which has also been a struggle, my mom constantly body shames me from calling me fat to I need to lose weight. I moved to a different state last time I visit my mom was 8 months ago I left back home crying because all she did on that trip was fat shame me, I went to visit her this weekend and I was embarrassed at first to go because I knew I hadn’t lost weight since I saw her and I knew she was going to bring it up well she didn’t but I just got home last night and this morning I get a text from her don’t get mad but you need to lose weight you are going to get sick from being so fat and it just destroyed me