My ex and I broke up a year and a half ago. It was a right person wrong time type of thing. We were so in love He was ready to start a family/buy a house/ was in university and had a future planned out. I was still figuring out who I was. At the time we were both 26 and living with our parents. Mine just got divorced and my mom was a mess and all household responsibilities were on me cause I felt I had to for my younger brothers. All of his time was spent at university studying. He broke up with me and I was absolutely Devastated but at the same time it was a relief I was sick of trying to explain myself as to why I don’t have the energy to plan for my future right now and I was sick of wishing he had more time to spend with me. But we were so in love. Or so I thought. But after breaking up he got a new girlfriend right away. They lasted 6 months. But during that time I was devastated and an absolute mess.

About a year and a half has passed. And we started talking again. He just graduated university and I have a couple more years left but I have a future planned and am moved out from my parents. I’m still madly in love with him. He said breaking up with me was a mistake. We agreed for now we’re just casually seeing each other and seeing where this goes without telling anyone.

I’m not sure what I should do.

I feel like I will be judged if I get back with him cause after breaking up all the people who are close to me seen what I went through and were upset with him for moving on to a new girl a week later and started bringing her to every place we would go together in front of all the people we would see regularly. A lot of people including me were pissed at him for going about it the way he did. My family didn’t like him much anymore either.

But the whole time I never stopped loving him. I would love to be back together with him but then I think back to that time in my life that he left me absolutely broken.

And it’s a difficult decision to make.

Advice?