Venting about life

It’s been over a month since I’ve completely stopped caring about my relationship. He doesn’t want to be involved in his child’s life…cool. He just doesn’t do anything with us. The only thing that makes him happy is being on his phone, playing his game, ect.

The relationship is abusive. I’ve been begging for love and for him to be apart of our child’s life. Tbh I’ve just had enough.

My toddler is special needs and it’s about time I put him completely first. To be honest I don’t like his dad. This relationship has destroyed me. I’ve put myself at an all time low by staying so long. That’s not who I am. It’s who I was.

Now, reason for this post..I’ve made a decision to move out. I moved so much stuff so far without my son’s dad knowing or even seeing me do it. Which I’ve done at night mostly.

I’ve been organizing and cleaning make sure I get everything I want.

He refuses to let me break up with him. He’s blocked me in the house with my son, he said the child lives here so he stays and tells me to leave by myself.

I’m scared he will be in the way and make me stay. He won’t willingly help me move. He doesn’t want us gone. He just wants us here so he don’t have to pay child support.

It’s been super calm around here for about a month ever since I stopped caring.

Like I said, I’ve moved so much stuff so far.

I also ordered my son a new tv for Christmas at my dad’s house. My dad has a tv but it’s never available.

Since it’s calm I don’t want to forget my plan going forward. My goal is to move on out. We can go to court regarding child custody moving forward. I’ll be honest tho, he’s not a good dad at all so I’m real nervous about him being responsible for my kid when I’m not around. He’s just not mature enough to watch him on his own.

Update:

I was just thinking about renting a truck and taking my bed out at night while he’s sleeping. There’s a whole plan. Anything I can’t fit in my car will go in the truck. So really he will find us gone but we will have to go to the friend of the court and get a custody plan and he needs to pay child support.

I don’t see how there will be any confrontation if at that point I’m not here because it will all be done at night while my child is with my family.