How are we getting over the fear of a loss 😩

I’m currently 5 weeks with my 7th pregnancy but only 4 living children I’m booked for an early scan at 7 weeks and up until now I’ve been really well anxiety wise but today it’s been horrible partner keeps telling me everything fine but of course we don’t know that yet

Im constantly worried something gonna happen so I’m constantly testing then if I’m not getting the result I want it’s just making it worse my tests are dark but part of me can’t help but think should they be darker I did a digital cb weeks test that came back as 2-3 and I can’t help think it should say 3+ by now I have zero symptoms aside from some whitish discharge and cramps here and there I had zero symptoms in my other pregnancies to which should give me some comfort but it really doesn’t

I’ve emailed my private scan place and asked if I can’t help bring it forward a week which I’m hoping is a possibility but even then I fell the days leading up to it are still gonna kill me 😩😩

pregnancy after a loss no matter how long ago really effect u man it horrible

I’m aware there’s nothing I can do and whatever happens has already been decided but I don’t wanna hear that right now 😞