2nd miscarriage

Hi everyone i have just found out last week i had lost my baby. I would have been 12 weeks today. This is my second miscarriage this year. I have had cramps and really heavy bleeding when passing the baby and i believe i lost my sack yesterday as i had lots off big clots and really heavy bleeding to the point i soaked 2 pads but it eased off after a bath. Im not sure what to feel anymore. Im angry and sad of course but i just havent cried. Is this normal? I was devastated but i just havent had any other emotion but anger.