Officially 3 years of trying

January made it 3 years of trying for our 1st. Things i learned this year. When you have been married for 5 years and you still don't have kids you start to get asked when you thinking of finally having kids from people who have no idea you have been trying for a while and it is a lot harder to get pregnant then they thought. It occurred to me that yea after 5 years to the public it looks like we don't want kids. I think taking birth control for 6 years messed me up hormonal wise. I have had tests done and i am fully capable of getting pregnant and carrying tge baby just can't for some reason. I cant get a period naturally post birth control. I have to take Provera to have a period. Had to learn what a chemical pregnancy was 2 years ago. Which that was sad to be pregnant for a day then not the next. My bother in law just had a child in May from honeymoon sex right after her iud came out. So first unprotected sex they ever had. Then 6 months later we learn they are pregnant again. Both times they were not "trying" it just happened. I hate taking tests now and I am really loosing hope at this point. I know if we can have 1 I will be happy but i am accepting what life willbe like if we dont have kids. I am turning 30 this year. I want to be done by 35 so the window is closing to have 2 kids which is what we wanted.