How to give mom peace
I'm extremely close to my mom. I have deep respect for her and love. We talk daily and we have a genuine friendship. I need help bringing her peace me talking to her listening to her and shutting down what her remorse is nothing is working.
She is ill and is paralyzed. So to have her mind at peace is a necessity for her well being. She is on antidepressants and anxiety meds and has come far mentally. It's hard to see her crumble with sadness. She isn't sad for the grief of the use of her body. She is solely only grieving the mother she was to me. She was a soldier first and wife.
I grew up with an extremely abusive father. He was narcissistic and mostly was physically and abusive to just me in the family. Even from a small age. My mom protected him. As a teenager I went to live and was raised by friends parents as my father tried multiple times to kill me. I only moved home when she divorced him years later and had stage three cancer so I took care of her.
I went off to college and had times of no contact with most of my family. I managed to have close friends and great healthy relationships with others. My husband and I are still madly in love and we have a wonderful family.
I took care of my father until he passed from stroke. I gave him forgiveness and grace. I treated him with nothing but tenderness and let him leave this world in peace. My mom struggled during this time because she always loved my father and she couldn't understand how I could move in and spend my days nights and months caring for him after all he had done to me.
Then my mom became sick after a stroke and all she focuses on is how beautiful my family is and how I'm doing the stay at home mom role and have an amazing husband. She is envious and so joyful I'm living my life. She becomes so upset though about always talking about the past. I rarely talk about my childhood and don't fixate on it to be honest. I don't know how to help her.
Her stroke didn't affect her brain only her spine but the toll of the years has left her with nothing but remorse. It's getting really hard for me to to take her calls at night trying to reassure her I'm ok and I wish her peace.
I can continuously forgive but I can't go line by reliving the hell my childhood was on a regular basis. I'm sure there are adults who want so badly for their parents to admit wrong doing but in our case it's multiple times a weeks years on end and I have to be present in my mind for my well-being. I could use some advice.
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