Newly divorce

Hi dolls👋🏻

So recently I’m going through divorce I haven’t filed yet because it’s recent. I have two beautiful children a one and four year old. It’s sad because I’ve been with their dad for 10 years we were high school sweethearts. I forgave him the first time I caught him cheating because I thought things could change. Little did I know he would never change because he cheated again a second time. I left him the second time around. It’s crazy because I still love him and I want to be around him like going out together to grab food with the kids. It’s like what he did to me it’s blocked in my head because I don’t hate him. He’ll bring up how we can get intimate again but I feel doing that with him messes with my feelings. I was so attached to him and now he’s not here with me and I wish I could go back sometimes but he’ll never change for me… What’s your girls experience with leaving your long time partner?