i need anything

i have nobody to talk to and i am struggling so much, my life feels like it’s crashing apart and i don’t know what to do i don’t even know how to feel. my boyfriend and i broke up and we’re still hanging out, i don’t know what he wants and he doesn’t either we both just feel so lost right now. it’s tearing me apart because if i lose him i also lose my step son and being a mom.

obviously he would never take him away from me and i would still be able to hangout with them but i would be losing being a mom. and i am not doing okay, we’ve had so many talks and ive asked him so many questions but neither of us know what to do and i just don’t know how to fathom losing either of them.

i love them both with my whole heart, they are my life. nobody else in my life has been in a situation even close to this so i really just don’t know what to do.

i’m house sitting so we will have another month of living apart but then i don’t even know where im going to live. i don’t want to lose him, he makes my life so much better. please help me im so heartbroken and my anxiety is through the roof.