Confused

Basically found out I’m pregnant two weeks ago. I always loved to have kids and now I’m pregnant I don’t know how to feel, I feel like it came at the wrong time in my life, I’m only 24 was enjoying life, going out travelling but I am telling myself it’s such a blessing and will help me grow in a way. My whole family and boyfriend is excited but I’m not. I went for a scan and I didn’t even feel anything about it, I know it’s also a shock and I’m getting used to it but I just wanna be as excited as everyone else. I think as soon as I hear the heartbeat it might feel more real and start to be more grateful.

My friends know and some were saying would I be feeling left out if they are all going out and would I be able to even look after the baby am I mature enough which also puts doubt in my head. I do wish I never told them cause maybe I wouldn’t be so hard on myself

I want to try enjoy this pregnancy journey as well I feel terrible thinking this way, just need some advice