Here we go again🫠🫠

So I had my firstborn 2022 than had my 2nd 2023. And for about 2 weeks I’ve been knowing I am pregnant again. We have a small construction business and it has not been going well. Economically we are living check by check with no luxuries. I feel trapped, I don’t feel like a grown woman that makes her own money like I once did, I don’t have the freedom to have me time all I want like him. I don’t feel like I have his full support in many aspects. Our communication is trash. We bump heads a lot and that is why I no longer wanted a 3rd child. My intuition was telling me to change my birth control. The day I had my appointment it was cancelled because where I live ppl freak out over a little snow 🙄😅🫠🤦🏽‍♀️ I wasn’t able to reschedule until about a month out 💩 I felt like I couldn’t trust myself with this b.c anymore and I kept trying to avoid sleeping in the same bed with him to try to not get pregnant. As always is women are expected to “Take care of ourselves “ but it’s both of our jobs. But tell that to him 🙄😒 I never really can predict my period sometimes it’s early sometimes it’s a week or two late. But this time idk why I was timing it so perfectly. So I grew suspicious and here we are. I’m about 6 weeks pregnant. I’m worried and happy at the same time but also sad. Stressed tfo. My boys are being more independent, slowly lost about 40lbs so was beginning to feel more motivated. But I noticed later that I could no longer wake up early af to go work out. My hard work has went out the window I’m worried about gaining back all this weight ppd feeling worthless not myself. I also know because of money reasons he’s not going to be happy. My concern is we are going to argue and he’s going to tell me ik I can’t be pregnant right now because we are not doing well yadda yadda. And Ik I’m not going to take his reaction well either. Ik I just need to get it over with but man I wish I could avoid what’s to come. And now I have to start over. On the other hand I hope it’s a girl if not I’ll also be sad because 3 is my limit. If it’s not that means I’ll never be a girl mom.