Squirting fetish?

Ok so I’m kind of embarrassed to even be asking this question but I was wondering if any of you like getting off to videos of women squirting? I start to feel abnormal. It’s so strange. I’m straight and I love my man but I can only relate to lesbian porn and women getting off by themselves or being licked to oblivion. Idk why. I don’t understand myself at all. I’ve never been with a girl and have no desire to in real life. I just like certain things to watch. Doesn’t mean I want to live it. Just like I like horror movies, but do I want to be the girl that gets kidnapped and snuffed out? No. It’s just not real life. Just a fantasy that turns me on. Maybe it’s just something I relate heavily to? I’m not sure. I read an article somewhere that said lots of women enjoy lesbian porn as well.. I just don’t wanna feel weird like I just KNOW someone out there can relate!