Unhappy need to rant...

My Husband and I have been married for 4 years together for 10. We have a 2 year old and I'm 18 weeks pregnant now. He works and I stay at home. We've had a few issues the past few years.

He cheated on me while I was pregnant with baby #1 with an old girlfriend we worked passed that.

A year later I find out he is about to meet up with the same ex-girlfrend and making plans to hook up with a coworker. He said he wanted out, so we separated for a little bit. But again we worked it out.

He says he watches porn every night because we haven't had sex in 4 months. He hasn't even kissed me in 2 weeks. My first trimester was horrible I couldn't keep anything down was admitted to the ER he didn't think it was bad enough to leave work to be with me as I sat in a hospital bed for hours alone. I want to have sex with him but by the time he gets home or comes to bed idk I talk myself out of it. I am really trying, I'm trying to blame pregnancy hormones for how insecure and sad I'm feeling. But I think I'm just unhappy with my marriage and I really don't want to be.

Thanks for letting me rant. Have a beautiful night/day/afternoon ❤