AFTER my 2 wk d&c post follow up

Of course the doctor said there way no real reason to know why the baby didn't keep growing. And or why it happened of course, I knew that's what she was going to say. So then we discussed BC options or if I was wanting to try again to wait after my 3rd cycle.

This being my 2nd miscarriage I was having and still am but with less anxiety a little breakdown. I am sad to try again yet I know I want to but I'm always working and have a busy schedule. Am I really ready right now (few month) vs. in maybe Sep. Or Oct. My mind was filled with thoughts.

So since I wasn't 100% sure of what I wanted or what my husband wanted I said yes give me the pills and I might take them etc. Right about the time I was walking out my husband calls me and asked to know what they said. I told him and first thing out of his mouth is don't go, don't get them. I was like the BC pills? He said yes. So since he works out if town and doesn't come back til the end of Feb. I guess I'll just be taking care of myself and getting my body prepared. And also hoping to have 2 cycles by that time.

I still feel a piece of me wanting to wait. Is it wrong to bring it up. Could it just be my just my feelings right now? I know I have no saying but I just don't want to have another miscarriage.