Emotionally down and out ??

Tatianna • TTC baby #2 inlove with my husband and we have and wonderful son 😍❤
AF is due in 3 days . After a year and a half of trying I dont even get my hopes up for BFP cause all I ever get is BFN not even close to faint lines . Im stressing myself out and just waiting to test is driving me insane . Im so sick of getting BFN nothing at all keeps my mind off of this . ??