Omg sex problems 😳😳😳

I have come to accept that he is not the love of my life, nor the man I plan to marry. He has kids of his own that do no belong to me and was previously married & I just don't feel like he takes the whole "rest of your life forever and ever" thing quite as seriously as I do. One of the few reasons I don't intend to make him my forever. 

Anyway, he is wonderful and all. But very recently my ex boyfriend of like 5 years randomly sent me a text message, which is ultimately not that serious but he was the boy I was always supposed to marry. I have accepted the fact that he will not be happening for me either because he got a girl pregnant while he and I had taken a "relationship break" and when he found out he proposed. And good for him, really. But I can't stop thinking about what he & I had going for us that it is distracting me from the here & now of my life. 

So my boyfriend & I have been having sex throughout our relationship and the last two times we have tried I have just dried all the way up. Like mid-intercourse and everything I just got so dry that we stopped and went to sleep. And that sucks because I like having sex with him, but I'm concerned because I don't feel like anything is wrong with me, and I'm sure it's not him, I just can't make it go away & I'm beginning to get self conscious and embarrassed about it so I've been avoiding sex even though I really don't want to. 

Also, I have had the same girl best friend my entire life and recently we "broke up" and I have no one to talk to about these problems I have in my life. 

Please offer me some kind of advice. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽