No PMS, no "day of gloom", BFN.

I'm 39, only eligible for this group a few more  months! 13 dpo, BFN last 3 days. 28 day cycles like clockwork. But haven't felt my usual PMS symptom. My only PMS symptom my whole life has been one day 5 or 6 days before my period - I'm a very active & social person and that day I want to stay in bed, crawl in a cave, I often think something's wrong with my relationship, feel like crying for no reason. I feel like I've gone up a cup size, not a normal PMS thing for me ever. Going nuts waiting to see if AF arrives this week or if I get a BFP...