Just feel so down.

PumpkinC
Miscarried late November; had to have a D&C at almost 11 weeks.  Was my first baby.
Now I'm into my second cycle since the miscarriage.  The first period was weird and super light.  Now I've been using Wondfo ovulation tests twice daily; this is cycle day 19 and no ovulation detected yet.
I'm also arguing with my husband about trying again.  He's not opposed necessarily, but he's also not super excited about it, which makes me feel like I have to be the one to push it.
Also feeling like I'm not getting any younger (going on 35) and angry with myself for gaining 10 pounds since the miscarriage.
Also feeling crappy for skipping 3 baby showers this month.  Everyone seems to be pregnant.
Just want to curl up and cry.  It all just feels rotten.