Really really really! !!stressteddddd

Ok seriously i just don't understand my own self!!! I have been through this 4xs before and still now.. this time.. iam now 23weeks and i don't understand it why now its slowly started to hit me smack me into reality that we have a new little person coming into our lives. I wanted nothing more than to have this baby i always felt after my 4th that i really wanted one more.. and i couldn't be more happy/grateful /excited and in love but at the same time so nervous /! Scared of the unknown. . Feeling unprepared as far as physical items we need still.. we have been through a lot over the years and 2 of my girls when they were born needed to stay in the hospital for long periods of time. . My now 6yr old daughter stayed for 4 months jn the nicu because she was born 12wks early due to placenta previa. . My 4th was full term and was born c section had pneumonia and stayed 2 weeks.. i cant stop stressing and feeling already sad about the possibility that my new lil girl may have some reason to not get to come home with me.. sorry for the long rant i cant sleep