The tub is the best place to have a breakdown

Krista • 1st baby girl due August 9, 2016!!! 🦄🦄🦄👶🏻🦄🦄🦄💜💜💜🍩🍩🍩
Lately I've not been feeling it. It seems like ever since I got pregnant crappy things happen. 
Severe debilitating morning sickness
Best friend says you "pushed her away" and ends friendship
Husband is away 4 days out of the week leaving me super lonely
We keep getting denied when we apply to rent town homes because we have pets (small dog and cat even though we both have excellent credit).
I hate my job and my bosses are idiots.
Everyone keeps telling me oh you think the 1st tri. Was bad wait until the 3rd! - Great. You'll never sleep again! - wonderful. 
I feel like I can't catch a break. I'm nauseous still at 13w I'm tired and lonely/hormonal. I know I should be so thrilled to be pregnant but it's kind of crumby. It's been the hardest thing I have ever done and I keep asking God why test me so ferociously? I'm in a weird place and I want my baby but good Lord I want to feel better and have a little something go my way! I want peace. I feel like I'm on rough seas in the dark.