Mother and Daughter

So I saw a video online about raising awareness about child violence by SoFlo. It made me cry and remember my childhood. I was a pretty silly child and very stubborn. I remember how my mom would yell at me and embarass me infront of many people. She's old school (the way she disciplines) so mostly she has to take everything physically and verbally saying bad mean words towards me. I also remember one time while my dad was beating me up, she'd add fuel to the fire by telling him the things she didn't like abt me. Please don't get me wrong I am forever thankful to my parents for doing everything they can to provide and support me. But there are just scars that cannot be erased. I also admit that I have mistakes too. Just seeing that video I just hoped that there was someone to have helped me that time because now I'm trying my very best to forget and forgive them but sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday. Please do not post something mean or rude or offensive towards me. I just want to know if you have any advice for me.