Divorce. 38+4. Depressed..Can't stop crying...

Before I married my husband we had many flaws in the relationship (should've been a red flag) I often questioned whether I wanted to be w him bc he would say hurtful things to me that he didn't mean which he has picked from his mom, one parent home & not as loving or as disciplined as my parents home was. Deep down I felt like I couldn't live w/o him & that nothing mattered. I agree that while dating I had said somethings I didn't mean that were hurtful & they were only to get him back. I have not said anything since. Well now that we've been married yesterday he said he wanted a divorce bc he wasn't ready for marriage, never was, that I forced him & has since changed his mind saying he was going through a transition & just was annoyed by his day which is bullcrap. He admits that he thinks a lot of it has to do w pregnancy & our intimate life not being as good but now i cry about it like every second & I can't get it out my head. Even tho he says he didn't mean it I'm scared it'll happen again. Now I think I want a divorce bc I don't deserve to be getting treated this way. Idk what to do... I want us but I want it to be natural not me sad over what he said & fearful that he'll say it again. I'm just so confused and depressed I keep bursting out crying out of nowhere... I keep thinking about an ex of mine who always treated me right, was so kind to me & sweet. We were a few years younger so it just mutually ended bc I wasn't ready for a relationship & planned on moving to another state. My husband has had his moment of sweet & I feel in love w him for many reasons but I just can't get over what he's said. Idk of its pregnancy hormones or not but I just want to be happy & have someone who won't pick days where he wants to be hurtful towards me.