First off I've always been easy to go into depression. But since I've had my baby in October, it's been completely unbearable. I just had a crying spell for about 4 hours and I had no one to talk to. I left my husband 3 weeks ago because we had a huge blow up. We were working through it, but yesterday we argued again over the phone over the same things. I have terrible anxiety too. He just doesn't understand how I feel and what I'm going through. He told me that I don't do anything around the house (which isn't true) but he says it so much that I'm starting to believe him. He has been so mean to me and shows no regret. He blames me for everything. He doesn't understand that being a mom is a 24/7 job. He has been so aggressive towards me lately. I tried to call him during my meltdown and he answered and once he heard me crying he hung up in my face and hasn't answered since. I want to to tell my doctor how depressed I am, but I'm afraid they will take my daughter because I have thoughts of suicide. I know I don't want to go through with it because I love my daughter and I know things will get better, but sometimes I'm just completely overwhelmed. My husband calls me a sad case and says he's too tired from work to listen to my sad story. I feel so alone. I've lost both of my parents and don't have them to talk to. I just really need someone to listen and understand without judgement. I pray and ask God to make things better, but it's just not helping. I've never felt so low in my whole life.