A year ago today I went into labor with my second child and miscarried in the tub . I knew my baby had passed away and I carried it for 3 weeks so I could have a natural miscarriage . My water broke at 3am and my baby came out with the next contraction. My baby was beautiful with little fingers and toes . I miss my baby so bad . I am currently 18 weeks pregnant with baby #3 and feeling extra emotional today. Any ideas how to make today special for my 6 year old without it being a sad time for her ? She was completely heart broken when we found out our baby had died and still gets teary eyed when we talk about it . I thought about releasing balloons with notes inside for the baby but I'm afraid I'll cry and make it a sad time for her . I'm hoping I can pull my self together today and continue my day as usual .