23 yr old loser

I hate where i am at in life . 23 no high school education , no ged , 1 miscarriage ( which i can't say im not thankful for ) , and awkwardly social. No friends , well i have one but she will only talk to me when she feels lonely . my boyfriend and i fck not even sex anymore , i feel like he is not attracted to me in any sort of way . when we have sex sometimes when im on top he'll bury my face in his neck and i feel like he thinks in ugly . my job is only 8/hr. Sometimes i wish i didn't have a miscarriage because then i know that there will be someone who will truly love me . i never have money. The most hours they give me a week is 28. Which isn't really to bad because the girls at work dont like me anyways . i have to use public transportation. I hate sitting I seats where other strange people sat , i dont know if they are clean or not . i hate talking I try to avoid it. Yep my life I'm such a Debbie Downer