Am I terrible person?

Soooo...

I'm a little bit stuck here, let me just give you a quick briefing *takes you down memory lane* (I promise it won't be for long)

I've been through a lot of crap, but hey everyone does right? I was bullied from a very young age and it was drilles into my head that I hasn't worth a gain of sand, and my previous boyfriend (who is a fuckboy, yes yes I was extremely stupid... *facepalms*) whom I thought I could trust and finally be myself around stabbed me in the back and was pretty nasty to me (verbal abuse, dominating me to the point I was pretty scared) during our relationship.

Sooo basically I don't believe I'm worth 1/10th of a grain of sand....

Anyway! My current boyfriend for almost 9 months has been an absolute jem to me, he cares for me and understands me, however... he doesn't really buy me anything, for example today gor Valentines day he.. didn't even get me a card.... he just finds old toys and such around his house to give to me.

Now he isn't the most wealthy guy around, it's difficult for him to get a job because he lives so far out of town and his parents are usually quite busy and he's still working for his license to drive alone. I never ask for much because I don't think I'm worth it and I don't want to be a total bitch or selfish arsehole but a even a stuffed toy under $5 would do me fine.

I just want to tell him that maybe putting in a little bit for effort would make me a little happier, I've bought him many gifts and always try my hardest. I just don't want to seem like a selfish bitch because I really do appreciate all he gives me and does for me, but little things like no card for Valentines or even Christmas do get to me.

Am I such a terrible person for thinking this?

Please help