I'm a fuck up...

I cheated....

I never wanted this to happen.. it just happened...

It all got caught up in the moment, & when it was over, I felt like i should kill myself...

I love my boyfriend to death...

It's just, I've been cheated on so many times, I'm afraid it'll happen to me, so I'll do it before the other person does it...

I've caught him asking another women if they could "secretly hook up" & I've caught him multiple times texting his ex saying he misses her & her kids...

I'm just so confused about everything...

& I feel like there's no room in this world for a bitch like me....