Af due today no show yet

Simz
Af due today according to glow glow spot on last month... don't want to test because scared to see bfn like always me an my so have being trying for baby number 2 for almost 2 years feels like a life time lol...for the past few days ive had some pains in my lower belly my boobs r sore and the bottom of my back hurts... any advice for me please