Confused!!

I think i may be pregnant but im too scared to do a test because of all the bfn in the past i know i need to do one and find out as soon as possible but i also think whats the point i know it will be negative .. Me and my husband have been ttc for 3yrs and it hurts so bad to see another monthwith  nothing .. I have had loads of symtoms that i dont usually get just with my period and really feel like this is the month .. Due af tomorrow :/ .. Could do with a little support!