I'm not in love with my Baby Daddy
I know that all things happen for a reason, with that specific person because the genetic make up of that baby will be exactly who God has chosen for it to be. That being said, I just wish I was in love with the person I'm having this child with. He was my high school boyfriend of four years, and once upon a time I did love him. I went to college and we broke it off. It is now five years later, we are very different people, however one night spent together has brought us into this beautiful yet messy situation of a blessing.
I'm in love with someone else. I have been for the past two years. But I moved back home and we took some time apart. Call me a hopeless romantic if you will, but I truly do believe in Soulmates, and I know he is mine.
He is supportive of me through all of this. He has been so incredible with an unconditional kind of love and I wish to be with him.
But then there is my ex (the daddy) that at first was distant from me after finding out. But now the past few weeks wants to "try to make things work". But is it wrong of me to want to be loved sincerely for the person I am rather than using this baby as a push towards a love that isn't there. I'm now 16 weeks and 4 days and I have attempted to get back into with him. We've gone on dates and such but I'm just not feeling it, kinda even feeling further pushed away.
It is difficult for my family to understand. I'm attempting to visualize the line between what society says you 'should do' or what your heart really wants. What is actually more important for the child- it's parents 'together' or a real sincere true loving relationship?
Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate any advice you may have. 💞
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