An update to a previous post... Sorry it's long...

I went for my first ultrasound... Supposed to be 9w1d at the time... The baby measured only 6w2d and they couldn't find a heartbeat. The doctor didn't hesitate to call it a missed miscarriage and immediately started talking about a D&C and future pregnancies.

But my gut screamed at me that it wasn't time to quit, so I turned down the D&C and asked for more bloodwork and another US next week.

At my first appt, the NP mentioned that I was tilted during my exam. I've read dozens of experiences where this caused babies to measure small and/or be hard to find. I'm dying to believe this could be what's happening with me... I just don't know...

The waiting for the next steps is killing me. I've not has any cramps or bled at all since the first US. The breast soreness and bloat is fading.... Is it because I'm losing my pregnancy or because I'm between 9-10 weeks, like so many have been posting about? Am I emotional because (on top of the situation) my hormones are normal, or because they're crashing? Am I having little flutters and twinges because my little chip is actually doing his/her thing, or because I'm getting ready to lose him/her?

Has anyone been through this? How did it turn out? Trying so hard to consider both possibilities and stay strong but the unknown is killing me right now. 😢