I hate that I feel I'm getting more depressed. I love my baby but I'm tired of being stuck in the house every day with her. I love her and am not ready to leave her for long periods of time but I can't wait to get back to my old routines etc. my SO is hardly ever here due to work and school and the gym 😑and when he is here it's hard for me to let him care for her. I'm tired of this newborn stage. I'm tired of wondering who's going to waych her whenever I go back to work and I hate that I may have to find yet another job. I have no family or friend in this state and I hate it too. My doc suggested Zoloft which I declined and opted to find a therapist. I need someone here for me